paul frank.

these are my new headphones for my very old ipod. how cute are they??? lol plus they're gonna be great when i'm on the plane and needing to cancel out the noise. i'm so excited to use them! :D

monica.

i want my hair to grow out like monicas. lol
watching friends whilst packing is so good :]

post-grad.

disclaimer: i'm so tired, which means there is bound to be typos galore and bad grammar. but i'm finally done.

and i'm all moved out.
and the email i was expecting today never came. so i'm thinking it never will, which is fine with me.

today:
woke up @8...then 805...810...815...820...830.
left LA @9.
arrived at apartment @1045.
cleaned. scrubbed. vacuumed. wiped. moved.
teary goodbye with summer and rachel. if i think about it too much i might start crying again. so moving right along:
carpet man didn't come until i called him @1230.
dropped off keys.
went to sbucks and gave the cashier 3 $5s and 2 quarters when the total was $7.30...and then i turned around and saw my phone lying on a table waiting for me to lose it. i was really really tired.
went to the bkstore and bought my 20% off ucsb tshirt.
took alona's postcard to the bella.
dropped off the cable box @cox.
4pm: went to the shack @carp. (its really called the spot, but i really have a hard time remembering that)
stopped in camarillo. went to the disney outlet and almost bought myself an $8 naveen doll. but i really wanted a tiana and there were none. it took all of my willpower to leave when selena was singing "naturally" on the tv.
bought some tokyo-appropriate clothing that were some good deals :] (i dont know how to make that grammatically correct right now)
listened to wicked on the way home.
tried to get internet on my laptop, but it can't find the network. and now i'm bummed bc i really wanted to see if rach & sum had come home to the virtual apartment we share.
oh and i checked gold and i passed my feminism+art history class! whew, i was really worried. my gpa's shot, but at least i dont have to redo anything.
i think i'm gonna get in bed and then spend all day tomorrow unpacking and finding my stuff. and painting my nails with the amazing new polish i bought with rachel and matches with summer. haha

kathleen kelly.

this is my favorite movie.
and she's one of the best heroines ever written.

"Sometimes I wonder about my life. I lead a small life - well, valuable, but small - and sometimes I wonder, do I do it because I like it, or because I haven't been brave? So much of what I see reminds me of something I read in a book, when shouldn't it be the other way around? I don't really want an answer. I just want to send this cosmic question out into the void. So good night, dear void."

the beginning of the end.

after only a couple hours of that sleep you cry yourself to, i woke up and was so out of it i thought maybe i dreamt up evvvverything from yesterday. turns out, nope. i'm still waiting on that heartbreaking email to come my way.


this song has been stuck in my head since the idol finale [man is she wonderful], but only recently was i listening to the words. & now it's on the rotation.

Undo It
carrie underwood.

I should have known by the way you passed me by
There was something in your eyes and it wasn't right
I should have walked but I never had the chance
Everything got out of hand and I let it slide

Now I only have myself to blame for falling for your stupid games
I wish my life could be the way it was before I saw your face

You stole my happy, you made me cry
Took the lonely and took me for a ride
And I wanna uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-undo it
You had my heart, now I want it back
I'm starting to see everything you lack
Boy, you blew it, you put me through it
I wanna uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-undo it

Na, na, na, na, na
Na, na, na, na, na
Na, na, na, na, na, na

Now your photos don't have a picture frame
And I never say your name and I never will
And all your things, well I threw them in the trash
And I'm not even sad

Now you only have yourself to blame for playing all those stupid games
You're always gonna be the same and, oh no, you'll never change

You stole my happy, you made me cry
Took the lonely and took me for a ride
And I wanna uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-undo it
You had my heart, now I want it back
I'm starting to see everything you lack
Boy, you blew it, you put me through it
I wanna uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-undo it

Na, na, na, na, na
Na, na, na, na, na
Na, na, na, na, na, na

You want my future, you can't have it
http://www.elyricsworld.com/undo_it_lyrics_carrie_underwood.html
I'm still trying to erase you from my past
I need you gone so fast

You stole my happy, you made me cry
Took the lonely and took me for a ride
And I wanna uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-undo it
You had my heart, now I want it back
I'm starting to see everything you lack
Boy, you blew it, you put me through it
I wanna uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-undo it

You stole my happy, you made me cry
Took the lonely and took me for a ride
Boy, you blew it, you put me through it
I wanna uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-undo it

i wish i could go back to college.

freshman year. de ja vu.

We could be...
Sitting in the computer lab,
4 A.M. before the final paper is due,

Cursing the world 'cause I didn't start sooner,
And seeing the rest of the class there, too!

memorable quote of the day.

"if i didn't hate the devil before, i definitely do now."


today's blessings:

1. rachel & sum.
i really needed the laughs and sympathy today.

2. a+ paper.
but that's not the only reason i liked my TA. she gave me some of the best comments i've ever received.

3. watching the undie run.
lol it's just SO isla vista. or as rachel says, sodom and gomorrah.

4. only $35 away from my support goal!!!
woo hoo! tokyo here i come!

story of our lives.

[on deciding which FRIENDS character is our favorite]
Rachel: It's a hard question. It's like trying to choose between your mom and your dad.


and for some reason, this was even more hilarious than usual to us:
Chandler: Monica got ice in her eye. And it hurts!

pomp & circumstance.

graduation is in 5 days...

- i've got my cap that makes my hair all funny and my face look weird bc my hair is too short.
- i've got my gown that's hanging in my bathroom waiting to scare me because it looks like lord voldemort flying by my sink. but at least its black so it matches my shoes. lol
- and i'm going to get my cord and stole today or tomorrow.
- and i've got one more final and an essay to write.

i want more time.

mr. sandman, bring me something else.

it's time for bed and i don't want to get ready because i know my dreams are going to make me sad. whenever i dream, daniel is in it and whenever he's in it, we're back together. but this last wave of dreams have been the moment of revelation and reconciliation. which is so much worse when i wake up.

so much for sweet dreams.

memorial day weekend.

super old. i just found this draft buried alllll the way down there. oops.


1. i <3 lily.
and i'm glad estephanie has figured out what "less than three" means :]

2. este maria singing "sausages sausages" to the savages song in pocahontas. and her "take it out" story.

3. rach n sum time. all the time. <3

4. operatic singing and the kendra voice all the way home. :]